Because I turned over and over again and thought about it, but I still felt reluctant to let it go.

Many people may know that my writing practice work on a certain website is no longer updated due to various reasons. When I made this decision, I felt a very strong sense of guilt, not for the readers, but for the characters in the book.

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I put a lot of effort into making them so vivid. Every action they take in the plot is done by them in my mind, not by me controlling them.

And once I decide not to write this book, it means that my children are dead and will never come back.

I don't want to experience this feeling again.

This is the single most important reason why this book has been able to stumble to this day.

After all, it is difficult for you to make me think rationally about the gains and losses when my mental state is not normal.

Only more extreme emotions can move me, including my love for every character in the book.

In recent times, many people may not understand the portrayal of greed, but in fact it is a portrayal of the author's heart.

In order to continue to shape these superheroes I love and give everyone the best ending, I have to write even if I can't continue, and even if I can't continue, I still have to write. Even if my mental state is uncontrollably declining, I still have to write.

And I want to ask, how did the author recover from this disease...

Do you think I would say it's because of you?

Okay, I know that by saying this, some people will be deceived and moved. After all, the review area of ​​this book is always full of little fools who are fooled by the plot from time to time.

However, as an author dedicated to popular science psychology and psychiatry, I must tell you that the main reason why my condition improved was adequate medication, and there is no other answer.

I have also seen many comments in the comment area sharing their own inner trauma, or wanting to seek psychological counseling from the author.

But first of all, the author is not licensed, so it's impossible to give you any treatment advice. All I can do is tell you, don't be afraid to see a doctor.

When some people hear that they take medicine because of mental illness, they think it is drug abuse, which is outrageous. But in fact, maybe what you think is only a mental and emotional problem has already affected the physiology, and it is just an excessively low mood.

, making you ignore this point, and getting medical treatment and taking medicine as early as possible will open the door to a new world for you.

Of course, I have to admit that the development of psychology in China is still not perfect. The distinction between psychologists, psychological counselors, and psychiatrists is not clear enough, which has led to many people being deceived.

The author says again that most so-called psychological counselors do not have the right to prescribe. They are not doctors and cannot treat illnesses, but they can comfort you.

A psychiatrist has the right to prescribe medicine and can also be responsible for comforting you.

Psychiatric doctors have the power to prescribe, and they may be able to comfort you, but they may not be able to. Some doctors are only responsible for diagnosing mental illness, and are not responsible for "talking" in the traditional sense.

Therefore, don’t expect psychological counselors to prescribe medicine for you, and don’t go to a psychiatry department. Just grab a doctor and let him comfort you.

The correct procedure is to register with a regular psychiatric department and follow the procedure for examination and diagnosis.

If the doctor determines that you do not need medication, but you still feel uncomfortable, then go to a professional psychological counselor and listen to his advice.

And if it is judged that you need to take medication, then you must follow the doctor's instructions instead of thinking that the disease will disappear naturally as long as you listen to a psychiatrist for a few words.

Moreover, most of the reactions to mental illness that I describe in the book come from what I have seen with my own eyes.

The purpose of writing these contents is to hope that everyone will not demonize mental illness. Like ordinary diseases, it has causes, symptoms, pathology, and can be treated and cured.

At the same time, I also hope that everyone will have enough patience for patients with mental illness, especially those with long-term illness or congenital diseases. These people are really suffering.

The autism spectrum that Schiller, the protagonist of this book, suffers from is a very typical innate mental problem whose cause is not completely clear, and there is currently no very scientific and complete cure.

Of course, the fact that it cannot be completely cured does not mean that it cannot be cured in stages. If you start to conduct network-style screening among the people you know and the people you know, you will find that the number of children with the spectrum in the past is,

There will be a lot more than you think.

But they are just like ordinary people. Living in this society, certain behaviors may cause some abnormalities.

If you notice some abnormalities in your life, or find reactions like some of the details described in this article, please don't make a fuss or be overly concerned. You are just an ordinary person.

Of course, in the end, I must thank the readers. Although medicine is the main reason for my recovery, the biggest difference between psychological and mental problems and other diseases is that they require a better recovery environment.

For a long time, the reason why I recovered quickly was because every time I opened the book review area, it was like entering a praise group. Many people came to praise me with a determination that made me feel confused.

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It's a little bit difficult for me to fix.

I don’t know why they are so determined, why they are able to discover so many shining points in works that are destined to be incomplete, and it is even worthy of them typing so many words to praise me.

This made me feel like "Is this a normal person?"

Patients with anxiety disorders feel like they are in a sea of ​​nothingness all the time. On the one hand, they are swimming forward desperately, not wanting to drown, but on the other hand, they know that the ship will not come.

If the ocean where ordinary people with anxiety disorders live is a sea of ​​emptiness and confusion, then the author is lost in a sea of ​​praise.

You may think that the moment the comment is posted, your emotional value is released and disappears into the air, but in fact it does not.

Through every sentence and every word, I can figure out the psychology of everyone posting, and feel this emotion more deeply than you.

This ability has brought disaster to me. Even though I have not suffered any major blows and my family is happy, I have always been troubled by mental illness. It is precisely because of my strong empathy ability.

And at this time, it became my boat.

If there really was a tower in my mind space, the drugs just glued it back together, but you, all the readers of this book, all your subscriptions, comments and likes, painted the surface to look like me.

The perfect look that I have always wanted but could not achieve.

Although I know that nothing in this world is perfect, what people with anxiety disorder are looking for is illusion.

The reason why they cannot be cured is that in the cruel real society, most of the time, they cannot even get the illusion.

I am very lucky. All readers use their every action to weave a utopia.

As long as I click on the Writer's Assistant, I can put aside all my worries and watch the many imperfect people in this world, and my heart is shaken by every word of the imperfect works I created.

Therefore, on this first anniversary, I would like to solemnly thank all readers of this book, including readers who may not have the money to read the original version, or who have posted suggestions for this book on other social platforms.

Thank you, my good medicine.

In addition, I would like to express my special thanks to all the readers who have rated this book.

I really can't figure out what kind of mood you have. After spending money to subscribe to this book, you actually spend extra money to reward it?!

Your behavior shocks me much more than the money you reward me with.

Of course, there are also people who really brought me a small financial shock, such as the 45 alliance leaders so far in this book.

Alliance leader! Friends! One alliance leader costs 1,000 yuan!!!

Whenever I think about this, I feel that my current living situation of having no worries about food and clothing may be just because I have not seen the world.

What makes me feel like I have never seen the world even more is the current Silver Alliance member Kratias and the Silver Alliance member Sain.

How come there are two Silver Alliances in this book?!!!

I didn't even write an outline when I started the book!!!!

…Why don’t I write an outline when I start a book?!

In addition, when the first Silver Alliance boss Kratias appeared, I had just finished 20,000 per day. My mental state was relatively poor at that time, so I did not complete a single chapter or give special thanks. I am really sorry!

And the other thing is!!! Boss Chenyi is the eternal god!! The first silver alliance!! The whole site banner!!! Thank you very much!!!

I said before that after the emergence of the Silver League, more updates will be made. However, after the full liberalization, the author has to commute three hours to work every day, and it is really impossible to finish writing.

Therefore, you guys can wait for me to be free and make additional updates, or you can just make comments and I will write whatever you want.

The number of words is uncertain and depends on the complexity of the plot. You can write CP, but it is basically impossible to include marginal content because it will not be reviewed, and the same goes for certain sensitive topics.

Of course, since I am a die-hard fan, there may not be much room for appreciation of this kind of customized extra, but I will definitely write it seriously and I will definitely write an outline in advance.

…So why didn’t I write an outline in advance?!!!!

Well, on the occasion of the first anniversary and the Chinese New Year, I would like to wish all readers and friends good luck in the Year of the Rabbit!

Happy New Year!
Chapter completed!